For better and for woes

Support is really important in a relationship and in a friendship... Without support, what good is the realtionship or friendship?

Recently I have realised that sometimes the things I care about most is also the thing that weights me down, that bothers me... If I can't get support from the people I care so much, then tell me where do I get support from?

Feels suffocated. A need to simply get away sometimes... a need for some people to just be there... a need for people to understand me...

Sigh...

Anyway, surprisingly, I changed jobs again. Got a job in an advertising campaign company, doing the ideas and promotions for major clients.... yup yup... interesting and cool...

Well bye to my stupid lady boss! And hopefully the new company and people will be much better!

Granton here I come!

Too Much Stuff!

Been working at Metakaos for 3 weeks... I had thought I will be happy... But right now its just stress and disappointed... My abilities were not recognised and no chances to perform... and worst of all, keep getting pick on by my lady boss...

She's a leo... so what do you think? Just like me, egoistic and stubborn.

Maybe she is jealous... Haha... Even when I look pretty in new clothes she has things to say... wearing a dress that is stylish and just 3cm above knee can let her say we are not here to sell ourself... OMG... Is she from the 60s?

And last night quarrel with dear... which makes me think of JF... Dunno how to say... but last time at least feels that things will be fine with him around...

Finally decided to tell him how i fell using friendster message... this is how it goes...

Boy...

I dunno if my reply is too late... but its because I dun have the courage to tell you how I really feel until now...

I dun even check my friendster... everyday I keep myself busy with work, with friends... everyday I just sleep 3 or 4 hrs then go work... So that I dun have time to think...

I tell myself I must be strong and do what i think is the best for both of us... I tell myself if me and you are meant to be together... oneday we will... or maybe i will really forget you and you will find another girl you really love... everyone will be happier... so I just have to be strong and have faith in things...

But do you know it is so hard? Actually I am very stress and sad at work... Everyday I get scold and people back stab me... and my boss pick on my everything... I everyday do so much and ot but all I get back is that... almost everyday at work halfway i will want to sms you... to tell you how bad things are... and i wanted to just leave my workplace sometimes... but i stayed and endure... cos i promise you i will do well...

but i am sorry... i still haven really change my life... i still take cab and let ppl send... I am trying... but still not easy... but i will go work everyday no matter how stress or tired... and i really not late on days... when i din make it i din tell you cos i dun wan you to be disappointed or worried... sorry...

I really tot you are living a better life le... din expect you are actually unhappy... So many times I wanted to call you but i never is because I dun wan to spoil your life... because i know myself too well... I cant just be normal friends now... cos i will want you to care so much... i will want to lean on your shoulder... I dunno why I will like this... but you always make me feel i can depend on you... thats why i control myself and tell myself to forget it cos what right do i have?

But yesterday n now... I really cant control... I dunno what you can do for me... maybe you will think you are just a normal friend... but i just cant control... just feel a need to tell you things happen to me...

This is just half the whole message... anyway I have a bad feeling its too late... I hurt him too much...

Tml got to face work and the people there again... God bless me pls!!!

Moving On!

Lotsa things have happened, and it is actually better! :)





Private life aka my BGR stuff is really long winded, so I will skip it in this entry. Main thing I wanna say is, I'll be starting a new life. I'm starting work at an Art Gallery tomorrow!





Metakaos. That's the name of the company.





Here's a really cool picture of how the place look like...

I will be working here! :P

Life is gonna be busy... Gonna miss ASBLT people... Hope you guys miss me too... haha...

Gotta go shopping now... Ciao!

This is Life!

Life is complicated yet simple.

Some things can't escape, like work, money, friends and love.

Yet it's not as simple as just work, money, friends and love.

I feel stress, angry and frustrated recently... Easily annoyed, and upset. Had nightmares too often... and I don't know why.

Could it be work? Maybe but I am sure not totally. My mind is thinking alot, and these few weeks I have changed in certain ways. More sure of what I want, and despite the frustrations I felt at times, I feel strong and positive. I thank these to my colleagues and my job... It's pushing me to strive for better life and a better me.

I realised, love needs effort. No matter how stable, things gets cold or change on and off... Need to take a look at the relationship and make efforts... If it is love, it is worth it.

I realised also real love is unselfish.

Nun jun is unselfish. He does alot of things which maybe others can't understand, but I know it's to make me happy. It seems silly but actually it's b'cos he just want me to have what I want, what makes me happy. I'm really touched at times.

Jian feng at times is unselfish too. He does not want to eventually 'get' me, like what normal guys will want, But he just want to be by my side to care for me, to see me, to be my best friend... although he loves me, he just want me to be happy with the guy I love, which is not him.

What is it about me actually? Hahaha... sometimes really wonder... so many prettier gals out there... what makes them willing to be fools for me? :p

And tomorrow I going genting with JF...Hope it will be fun! Take the stress temporary off me pls!!

I will miss all my buddies, my gd friends... my dear dear... my aiai... must miss me wor! wait for me to be back on tues! Muack!

Give me potion Miracle!

I need a miracle...

My work needs a miracle!

Ya... my relationship is more or less settled... at least for things between me and jian feng. For those who don't believe it, or just refuse to believe it even though I have said it times n times agin... well, suits you... But I am sure what it is now.

Don't get it wrong... We are still very best friends... Still tells him my things... and still do meet up... I will always treasure our friendship... always 比好朋友还要好的朋友！

Even though he still likes me... and we do care for each other a bit more than jus friends... decision is clear, and both of us happy bout it...

I really hope he is truely happy.... Not just me needs to be happy! silly boy boy... I want you to happy too! The special feelings we held just treasure it for whatever it is ba...

I am sorry, I love nun jun too much, i realised... and I have been so honest to you, sorry if i hurt you... but i have faith that you understand me de... and i believe you understand my feelings...

Thanks boy for being there... for being you... I love you...

Hope our promises to each other will be keep!

The Journey to Bliss

" If you think you can, or if you think you can't... Either ways, you're Right!"

Life deals us an awful lot of wild cards. When things seems predictable, it is often surprising.

When you rather things be constant, it becomes different.

Change, is inevitable.

I realised, writing blog is a never ending process. Aned my story will never have a ending. Sad or happy, laugh or cry, its an everyday thing. I don't mind changes in my life... but is mine a little too fast, too unexpected? Ha....................................................

I am stronger.

Things haven't stop happening. I get upset, angry, disappointed... 很无奈... And some things just can't be change, maybe... So, Just be happy!

I want my life to be like before. Buddies, friends, family and work. Ya, and my dear dear. Everything that makes me happy. And I'm back to work! Seriously, I mean. No matter how hard, I will make it work out just nice, and better even.

I remembered... From really young till last year, I have been really lucky. Everything I do, will work out well in the end. Even when it seems way down, it always turns well in the end. Be it romance or work. I have had my heart break before, and I thought its the end. I will be sad for a long long time... Guess what? I recovered in less than a month. Ya, that's how it always happen... Everything happens for the good :) So, why am I different now? Always so pessimistic? That's not me!

I guess I lost my way for a little while out there. It's ok... I am back now. The PrincessRon all of you know!

Hope that despite my busy job and busy life, my true friends will always be there. Walk the route with me, all the way.

Last but not least... I wanna say... I... lost.... my.... thumbdrive!!! Hahahaha... What were you guys thinking? Haha:p

Sob... so pictures will have to wait...

Zzzz... tired now... after my MJ session at wen wei house again... Ciao!

I'm Back~

Sorry guys~ I know it's been long since I update my blog, and left you guys with nothing much to read.

Well, I realise something... For someone people, in times of sadness will tends to blog more... When happy, forget 'bout blogging... Haha... and that's me maybe... I almost forget 'bout it.

But I'm back! Recently was good, was fun. Just came back from my diving trip with Michael. Will upload the pics next time! That trip was relaxing and it's the first time I went overseas with Michael. It's really much more enjoyable than the previous time I go diving... :)

Now I feel like I'm taking a trip down memory lane. Too long never blog and now recalling what has happen recently...

Last last week.... went to my colleague's wedding, as a 'sister'. I wore a Cheong Sum... haha... Looks like a total babe wor~ Haha~

Last wed, went Zouk! Miss that place! Fun Fun Fun! I dance till crazy... Very happy night... Love you guys... Apple, Sher, Jac&Stephen, WenWei, Jian Feng and Michael... And was so happy and surprise that Jianfeng came... He don't club at all de... Hehe... And he is been a total sweetie recently...

When I came back from Tioman on Sunday... Jian Feng, Apple and Rofino was there to meet me... And I think it was Jian Feng who contacted them... Sweet of you boy! Really happy to meet up with you guys that night...

'We' are closer n closer... Sh**... I am scared man... Feels like I'm not in control... might be feeling more than I want to... It feels like my inner fire is on flames duh....

He asked me why I refused to answer his call again just now... I don't know! Sh**! Not like he did something wrong... But I feel out of sorts...

Tonight going for a run... Whew~ Suddenly feel like meeting Apple instead...But I promise him le...Sigh~ like no time for some friends... Am I been too busy for them? SoRRy Guys!

p/s buddies... next week mid-night cycling kk? sorry everytime postpone for me....

Dear... need time alone with you! If not we going to be like miles away le.... Wed club kk?

为何心情总是起起落落?
为何总是一笑而过?
为何人总是那么脆弱?
难道是因为怕受伤害
而让一切错过?
~好无耐~