Living in de crazy, messy World

At first I was happy being back. Afterall, I do miss them. All the laughters and silly fun was long missed by me. So I was glad and I treasure it.

But I was just a fool I guess.

Why can't I ever learn not to trust so easily? When will I learn to be fake like others?

Maybe I can't. I am just me. When I take you as a friend, I really do mean it.

Heck. Now, I think, if I am not appreciated, then FORGET IT.

I don't need that. I need people who loves me, who treasure and care. And I have got them.

Friendship should be the pillar you can lean on when things go wrong, when relationship goes wrong, when work goes wrong. It should be the stable thing.

But to some, maybe friendship can just keep changing, anything unhappy don't say, just form their own small little group. Just be happy and don't care bout others' feelings. One group become two. That's called friends?

I am fair, but sadly, the world is not.

Tired~ Physically, mentally.

Visions of Mine

~Enmeshed in the fake world of reality~

Awaken from a bad dream.

Last couple of days clear my mind a little.

绕了一圈, 我们还是做回好朋友。

好多天的不愉快，我的固执，要他放弃。那天在Wen Wei 家打完麻漿后，他还在楼下。之前我们吵了又吵，我真的很累。上他的车原本是想回家休息的，到最后却去了东海岸。

结果他让我答应原谅他，我们的确变的和以前一样有说有笑。我只希望他会做到他说的，希望真的会开心。

What is reality?

Everyone's reality exist in their own mind. What I see as truth may not be what you see.

Only can follow and believe one's own reality.

My reality now is my relationship with Nun Jun is great, my friendship(or whatever u call it) with Jian Feng is ok le, the big problem now I have is my career. Full of uncertainty.

What do I do to be really happy without depending on anyone?

最大的寂寞是当发现，连想也不敢想自己心中的他！

Being in Sadness, Flood with tears

Submitted my previous posts late, hence two submitted posts in a day...

Last night was a sad night for me. I make a decision which is as painful to me as it is to him.

两个完全不同的人，与其勉强，不如放弃。或许放手是我爱你最好得方式。

He always never give up, and that's also the reason why I always care. I know that he called Wen Wei last night... Wen Wei said he was crying and really determined to salvage the situation. But everyone knows, a typical Leo girl is damn stubborn! I had enough! And so, I did not give him any chance to talk last night.
Instead accompany Wen Wei to boat quay to look for Flora. Cos' Flora drank alot so WW wants to be there...

A slight envyness rush over me.

Will the two guys, who say they love me, be doing the same, if it's me?

突然好想你，有点不习惯你不在身边。